Random Pictures.


my temporarily extraordinarily neat wardrobe, lovely bohemian earrings from evan dearie, ck watch from wei


wei & i, taken almost a year ago.


my smelly brown hamster that makes up for its stench by being extremely responsive and docile.

my autistic and i suspect, deaf, white hamster bestowed with the innate ability to monkey-bar.

a certain sunday afternoon, a symbolic white rose, a birthday surprise for the birthday boy.

two people i love.

i miss switzerland. this was exactly one year back. argh! i wanna go there for the hols again!!

my mucus-filled tissue, my two vulnerable friends beside a virus-infected me.

my sweetiepies.

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been feeling rather down lately even though exams have ended.. with so much time on my hands and nothing much to do, my mind inevitably starts to wander.

am i a lousy friend? i must be, or i would have more friends to turn to. not one knows or understands or truly cares. Patronizing looks of sympathy or "it's going to be ok, don't worry" frustrate me because i see how shallow they are, and i feel trivialized. maybe it's because i bottle it all up and they don't know how i feel. maybe it's because i haven't been there for them either. maybe it's because i never offered anything to them in return for their friendship and kindness. maybe it's because i spent too much time with him and forsook them to begin with. maybe there's just something wrong with me.

i'm paying the price for it. i see my future and the consequences of my actions. when he leaves, i will lose my best friend and lover. And in place, there will be..................... no one.

maybe i'm just being too pessimistic and negative, but this one thing i know--i've never felt this alone before.

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Give me the strength to journey through this valley ahead

For my companion's impending absence fills me with dread