after being like this for the past two weeks,
i'm extremely happy to announce that i have been officially de-nerded today! wheee!!!
but at the same time, freedom gives rise to boredom which in turn generates eccentricity within me.
so i start thinking about lots of things that i shouldn't think about too much. things like:
what if things have changed?
i'm so mediocre it's disgusting.
what am i good at, really? nothing.
where have these friends gone? or maybe it's just because i wasn't good enough a friend to begin with.
you're my pillar of support in times of adversity - how am i going to cope when you leave?
why is everyone so competitive?
why do i feel so oppressed by her when she says those things?
why is my hamster cage so smelly?
so there... i really should busy myself instead of feeding on such negative thoughts....... be constructive esther, be constructive. owell.......... owell.
on the bright side, i'm going out with pokster tmr! haven't seen her since she left for aust on 11feb! so.. yayay! and i'm visiting city harvest church this saturday with ailin sherina simon and partners, and i bought two gorgeous white bikinis super cheap a couple of days back, and the salesgirl who kept staring at my stomach today said my stomach was superultraflat and toned, and the auntie at the calculator shop yesterday said i was pretty even though i had a huge wart-like zit on my face. i choose to believe it was not sales talk. hahahhaa.
Anyways, that's all the happy things i can think of right now.... sigh. back to the hamster duo again. i live vicariously through my hamsters.
i'm such a loser.
