Lately i've been feeling mentally exhausted--it seems like i'm always trying to race against time.

I badly want add variety and colour to my insufferably dull life, but simply don't have the capacity to. Looking at others manage multiple activities concurrently brings me a deep sense of shame and frustration with myself. More so, watching him struggle to juggle his work, studies, family, health and me just intensifies my existing frustration and drenches me in helplessness.


By now, i should know better to do things by my own strength. But oftentimes i still commit that mistake.

God, take over.. and make things beautiful again...