have i mentioned that i just loathe mosquitoes? especially when they attack your face in the middle of the night and do that high-pitch buzz in your ear?

last last night they were on the offensive again. and to make it worse, i was having trouble sleeping because of tummy cramps and a really bad throat. when i fiNally did manage to fall asleep, i heard a BUZZ in my ear and shot out of bed. it was 2am. i cautiously went back to sleep, and when i next arose, it was 5am, and i had three bites on my face--on my cheek and each eyelid. which is why i stayed at home for the most of yesterday--i looked too hideous to face the world.

but anyway have u wondered why God created mosquitoes in the first place? i've been thinking for years, but the best reason i can come up with is that they're meant to be food for the lizards. but lizards eat lotsa other flying insects too. so my point still stands--mosquitoes are redundant in this world.

On to deeper issues..... lately for some reason, i find myself becoming very thankful and for people around me.. but at the same time, i start to feel burdened by their troubles too. I realise how important family is to me, and also how good my closest people are to me. I hope i remain this way.. because i tend to take things and people for granted (don't we all?) and i don't ever want to regret not treating them better when they're taken away from me.

Yesterday night, i happened to watch the 9o'clock channel 8 show, and saw this part where chen liping's two children did well for their exams and she really wanted to reward them but didn't have the financial ability to because her husband was in coma. So she told them that she'd take them to eat burgers, and the two kids were just ecstatic.

As i watched that scene, i wondered to myself--how many people in singapore actually have to think twice before going to Mcdonalds? Amidst all my ranting about how i have insufficient shopping funds, have i conveniently forgotten about how fortunate i am to have a whole and intact family with constant steady income? about how blessed i am to have burgers everyday if i want to? (but i don't want to lah.) To these kids, burgers were a luxury. For me, i start complaining about how sick i am of them when my parents buy them back. Perhaps I have to learn to appreciate the simple things in life that i take for granted so often--simple things that others may long for but cannot have. The trick to being happy in life could simply be to find contentment with what you already have instead of seeking to conquer what you have not.